What Now? (Part 1)

1 December 2023



Today marks the third anniversary of my Mum's passing, so for that reason it seemed fitting to jump forward in the timeline of repopulating my blog with mixes I have put together.

This three part series of mixes were put together a few months after; the dust was settling and I was feeling quite lost, unsure what to focus on, given the fact my Mum and her care had been the centre of that focus for such a long time. At the same time, although she never complained, I also had a sense of relief that she was not living with the illness that deprived her of so much, and perhaps selfishly, that I didn't carry that weight of responsibility. I was looking for my path forward. I still feel surrounded by fog, I'm still looking for the path, it's a work in progress.

I tried to put together these mixes with a sense of what I was feeling, and when I listen back to them, I feel that I captured it reasonably well. To me there's a sense of loss, melancholy, connection to nature and also elements of light and hope within the music and mixes. As my friend Matthew put it in a comment - "There is a sense of calm reverie. There is hope".

You will find part two [HERE] & part three [HERE]

The tracklist is linked up for you to be able to pick up any of the music you might want for yourself.

Part 1



Kinder Scout - Interlude (Home Normal)
Charles Bukowski - Go All The Way (Read by Tom O' Bedlam)
David Cordero & Miguel Otero - Dolores (Archives)
Slow Meadow - We Can Only Love Through Suffering (Hammock Music)
Agnes Obel - Stretch Your Eyes (Ambient Acapella) (Late Night Tales)
Endless Melancholy - Lost (Hidden Vibes)
William Ryan Fitch - VII: In A Sense Of Ether (Lost Tribe Sound)
Sven Laux & Daniela Orvin - A Moment Of Silence (Dronarivm)
Luke Howard Trio - I Think It's Sinking In (Lukktone)
Yumiko Morioka - Moon Road (Métron Records)
Owl - Glimpse Of Decline (Silent Season)
Steven Kemner - Sleep Well (Facture)
Olga Wojciechowska - To Feel Much More Than Now (Self Released)
Daniela Orvin - Sudden Farewell (Dronarivm)
SiJ - Memories Lost In Time (Hidden Vibes)
A Veil Of Water - Frailty (Hidden Vibes)
Brambles - To Speak Of Solitude (Serein)
Warmth - You're Not Here (Archives)
Hania Rani - Today It Came (Gondwana Records)
A Winged Victory For The Sullen - All Farewells Are Sudden (Erased Tapes)
Walter D Wintle - State Of Mind (Read by Tom O' Bedlam)
Adrian Lane - An Occasional Hushed Word (Preserved Sound)


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